Thursday, October 29, 2009
i shant be selfish.
do what you want that makes you feel happy.
you disappoint people.
not me.
Labels: much as i've guessed.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
never once i asked for someone pity.
and i dont need one from you either.
you may want things from me.
but what makes you think i'll return.
that part of what you have done lingers.
and i really think i'll could forget it.
but well, till now i cant.
because the impact is there.
we shall stick to status quo.
and what i've been doing,
what ever the reason.
i dont think i need to share.
because i'll prove something.
lust always beat love.
i dont think you deserve someone like me.
find someone better.
someone who would love you. more.
because thats what you'll need.
you've had your fun. (pun intended)
let me have mine.
Labels: take a ride on my discostick
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
you know, i live my life for sex.
because love didnt exist. yay!
went to club and hooked up? checked.
when to sleep and some stranger's house? checked.
slept with one of your facebook friends? checked.
made someone cheat on the partner? checked. checked. checked.
slept with the other partner? checked too.
HAHA. see. i told you so.
Labels: sex was in the cravings.
Monday, October 19, 2009
when i see you,
i felt a little awkward, why you may ask?
because my heart beats so fast
when you look me in the eye and smile.
we might just make it.
but i doubt so.
Labels: neither.
Monday, October 5, 2009
do you have anything to say after listening to it?
i cant be with you as your boyfriend.
but that doesnt mean that i dont love you.
sigh.
why love has to hurt?
Labels: love of siam.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
i feel empty.
are you going to give me up?
Labels: please dont.
i know i've not updated my blog for ages.
something in me triggered today, surprisingly.
there are so many happenings this many months.
if i have to write about all those, it will take ages.
someone made me realised that i've played out hard.
and i ought to start thinking and i should start to love.
but love, has always crushed me down.
it hurts so much that i dont dare to love.
and i stopped believing in love.
since some kid left me in 2007.
and i took toll and played around till now.
and its getting nowhere at all.
i fell for someone deep on just the first night.
its just an attraction that i nvr felt so long.
and i keep denying it.
and deny.
and deny.
and deny.
and here i am now, writing, feeling numb.
because someone out there, make me wanna love again.
Labels: E.