i skinned my knee.

i was so bored. that i actually googled my name.

and guess what, i found a very interesting article.

its written by the educational minister,Tharman Shanmugaratnam.

it was his visit to my secondary school, Assumption English, which i presented about the National Education.

and guess what, i was mentioned in the article together with those who presented with me and our views.

Grades are not the only thing in life

But what inspired the largest number of Singaporeans was PM?s vision of education ? education not just to prepare the young for a job, but so that they can learn to be a full person ? xue zhou ren as the Chinese say. As PM put it, grades are not the only thing in life.

His call to ?teach less, learn more? has lit a fire of enthusiasm amongst teachers, students and parents. They know that we have an education system that most countries envy. But they also know that the best time to improve, and make our next leap in quality, is when the system is still working.

What does ?teach less, learn more? mean to 16-year-olds? Tan Li Bing, who has brought honour to Singapore at international competitions for the disabled, told me we should give students more time to explore and discover their talents. Affizul bin Mohamad suggested class field trips each month to strengthen the bond between students and teachers. Brian Teo felt we should allow students to focus on a particular area without having to rush through topics. There should be less memorising, and more understanding. Asha Gayatheri said we should not spoonfeed students with answers. We are listening to every view.

http://www.pap.org.sg/articleview.php?folder=PT&id=127

i know he spelt my name wrongly. but nvm la.

its a common mistake.

got ppl spell is as afizul, affizul, affizzul.

aiya, some more got ppl call me ah fei zhu la. -.-

those were the days.

Labels: i got mentioned by minister.

im still feeling low.

like really low.

hell 18th Level cant say how im feeling now.

mine's worst.

like really bad.

i want to rip out someone's head like that.

i think you ppl have the idea now luh.

bye.

oh ya, happy birthday to joanne and jeff. (:

Labels: HELL LOW.

im feeling super low now.

i lost my wallet.

i lost my IC.

whoever found my wallet, pls pls pls return to me.

i'll greatly appreciated it.

im broke.

like totally,

because i lost quite a sum of money together with my wallet.

so if there is some kind soul out there,

donate some money for me pls.

057-55902-0

but then again, i doubt there will be any. :(

Labels: DAMN SIAN.

the bottom line that you wanted to tell me,

this is not love.

and you send me the song somemore.

why am i still here.

Labels: F H C H.

Show me where I belong tonight.

Give me a reason to stay.

No matter if I go left or right.

I always come back to love your love

I've been up and down.

Been going round and round.

I've been all over town.

But I'll never find somebody for sure

Show me love tonight.

I'm going to left to right.

No matter where I go.

Always find your love

I've been high and low.

I don't know where to go.

Cause I love you so.

And I'll never ever find someone like you for sure

Show me where I belong tonight.

Should I go left or right.

I always come back to your loving, baby.

Show me I where I belong tonight.

Should I go left or right.

I always come back to your love

Labels: always come back to your love.

i know i owe you(readers) updates.

but sometimes, i rather this laptop of mine reads my thoughts

and post it on blogger.com for me.

but i know, some things are better left unsaid.

friday and saturday were clubbing days for me.

together with the usual suspects.

friday was more of an unexpected.

while saturday, was BAD.

i dont wish to get into much details.

back to where some things are better left unsaid.

and by the time i got home,

i felt the heat on my body. just like yours.

slept at 8am. though promised to sleep at 6am.

i laughed on how silly i was.

sunday was funny.

ahjiang went to get MC together with me and jiawei.

slacked at vivo. and coincidentally met jonnie.

he starting sch on monday!

no more seeing you club i suppose.

the word school, made me missed the days.

and im down with fever.

monday was a blast.

i played in the rain.

which made me feel carefree while having fever.

though i know that pissed you off.

met tino which i was late. AGAIN.

went to vivo after a few bickerings.

watched movie.

and cam galore. off home and off home. (:

fever kicked in again.

had 3 panadols.

tuesday was a sleep-in.

i slept more than half a day.

and my head is feeling heavier.

k. dont tell my mum, but i took 4panadols.

you seem distant from me after sat.

sometimes, i wished i didnt know you.

and now its wed.

and im feeling moody on what happened on sat.

seriously, being EMO is stupid.

and you think stupid stuff.

and get worked up on small stuff.

and saying smth that shldnt been said.

HEADACHE! :(

i just wished things are back to normal.

and i wished im still schooling.

behold the future now i suppose.

while i laugh at myself.

i want to be alone.

yet, i want you to talk to me.

Labels: F E V E R

im a player in everything,

but never when it comes to love.

Labels: feel me.

當你決定　你要離開我　
我沒有說什麼　
就當作你自由

有好幾次我都想挽留　
苦求也沒有用
就當作是寂寞

因為我能明白
他的溫柔　對你是種解脫
就坦白告訴我
誰是你的最愛

其實你很愛他　
對我的懲罰　
說你沒有想他　
是可憐我吧

我已沒有藉口
只能放手
不敢奢求
你說愛我

其實你很愛他　
他很溫柔嗎　
其實你很想他　
就說出口吧

我已不想多說
摀住耳朵
不想再次聽到你說
你很愛他

dang ni jue ding　ni yao li kai wo　
wo mei you shuo shen me　
jiu dang zuo ni zi you

you hao ji ci wo dou xiang wan liu　
ku qiu ye mei you yong
jiu dang zuo shi ji mo

yin wei wo neng ming bai
ta de wen rou　dui ni shi zhong jie tuo
jiu tan bai gao su wo
shei shi ni de zui ai

qi shi ni hen ai ta　
dui wo de cheng fa　
shuo ni mei you xiang ta　
shi ke lian wo ba

wo yi mei you jie kou
zhi neng fang shou
bu gan she qiu
ni shuo ai wo

qi shi ni hen ai ta　
ta hen wen rou ma　
qi shi ni hen xiang ta　
jiu shuo chu kou ba

wo yi bu xiang duo shuo
wu zhu er duo
bu xiang zai ci ting dao ni shuo
ni hen ai ta

When you decided you wanted to leave me
I didn't say much
Just treated you as you were free

So many times I wanted to pull back
Intense begging was of no use
Just treated it as loneliness

Because I can understand
His/her kindness was a kind of release for you
Just honestly tell me
Who do you love the most?

Actually you really love him/her
As my punishment
Saying you didn't think of him/her
was pitying me, right?

I already don't have any excuses
I can only let go
I don't dare demand you
to say you love me

Actually you really love him/her
Is he/she really gentle?
Actually you really miss him/her
Just say it

I already don't want to say too much
I cover my ears
Don't want to hear you say again
that you really love him/her

one thing i know,

my friends are funny people.

they are the entertainment in my life i tell you.

though some move in and out of my life.

there are those who park and throw their keys away.

thank you.

chua zheng jiang, you are being missed now.

though i was angry with you that time.

and now you're angry with me.

friends come through, dont they? (:

Labels: friends.

tired.

you can nvr know how much

i missed you today.

BYE.

Labels: fuck la.

everyone has a different way of expressing their love and their sincerity.

and of course,

i want all my friends around me to be happy.

free from all worldly problems.

and smile freely. (:

laughters are the best possible medication out there.

and JIAWEI, all the best for NAPFA.

and we will be meeting soon. (:

Labels: Differences.

i remembered that u lost the wristband i gave you from thailand.

i remembered you loved it so much.

i remembered i went around the whole Singapore to find a replacement.

i bought one.

not knowing that the previous one can never be replaced.

i remembered passing it to you after we swam at bukit batok.

but what differences did it made.

it all made me think.

after all the trouble i went, i found it this yr.

i found it at agnes b. a few weeks back.

and my heart just bleed.

that was the wristband that supposed to tie you down with me.

those were the days.

and im aint that important anymore.

and of course, all the best with you and your new love.

Labels: YOU

yes, all i can say, i miss you.

does it make a difference whether you might miss me more?

clubbed on friday and saturday.

usually this happens because my friend booked out.

NS really takes a toll in freedom la.

what makes you think that clubbers can never be faithful?

its perspective.

just because he dances a lot, but those are all his friends he's dancing with.

never with a stranger unless my mind's single.

i lay on the bed. thinking of you.

Labels: the way you look at me.

i got woken up by jiawei while having my nap.

and it got me thinking.

its ok to date other people right?

as in multiple dates. like keep the option open.

but i always feel that i need to be faithful to one.

but what if my date is having multiple dates behind me?

sian. dilemma.

i shouldnt be thinking so much i think. heh.

its the IN thing i think.

haha.

see who is really interested and not playing around.

enlighten me pls.

but on the second note, if i do that. i feel like im cheating.

i rather not do that.

k. i go shower.

who wanna join me.

raise your hands.

i'll pick. (:

&you, sweets.

Labels: Multiple Dates and Feeling Insecure.

Yuan Dian

Yong bao de shi hou xin qing you dian tong ye qu ti zao gan shou dao ji mo

Chi kai de shi hou zhi ting jian chen mo

Chu le chen mo wo huan neng zen yao zuo xuan ze

Bie dui wo bao qian bie zong jue de dui wo yu qian

Xian zai ta zai nai de shen bian jiu dui ta hao yi dian

Bu yao zai rang ni men de ai bai gei le shi jian

Ji ran yu jian le yong yuan jiu bu yao shuo zai jian

Bu yao zai rang ni men de ai shu gei le yong yuan

Wo men jing guo na yao duo kao yan zui hou huan shi hui dao le yuan dian

Zong you na yi tian xiang yu de shun jian

Que ding na xie leng mo de cong qian yi zou yuan

Bie dui wo bao qian bie zong jue de dui wo yu qian

Xian zai shui zai nai de shen bian jiu dui shui hao yi dian

Wo ying gai jiu zou kai jiu suan gan qing huan zai

Wo ying gai jiu fang kai dui ta bu zai yi lai

Wang le ceng you guo de pian duan zhe shi shu yu ni men de wei lai

Bu yao kan dao ni men de ai bai gei le shi jian wo neng yuan xuan ze chi bie

Mei you yi ju yuan yan zhi dao ni neng ruo wu qi shi liao qi le cong qian

Wo cai fa xian bi ci du le jie mo qi shi zui bao gui de yu yan

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its been a long time since i posted a chinese song on my blog.

the chords for this song is uber nice.

thanks to the person who send it to me.

and now, im singing to singapore songs.

national day is near. maybe thats why la.

and yes, i miss you.

Labels: 我应该就放开不再對他依賴

this i promise you.

When the visions around you,

Bring tears to your eyes

And all that surround you,

Are secrets and lies

I'll be your strength,

I'll give you hope,

Keeping your faith when it's gone

The one you should call,

Was standing here all along..

And I will take

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you

I've loved you forever,

In lifetimes before

And I promise you never,

Will you hurt anymore

I give you my word

I give you my heart

This is a battle we've won

And with this vow,

Forever has now begun.

Just close your eyes

Each loving day

I know this feeling won't go away

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you.

Over and over I fall

When I hear you call

Without you in my life baby

I just wouldn't be living at all.

And I will take,

You in my arms

And hold you right where you belong

Till the day my life is through

This I promise you, baby.

Just close your eyes

Each loving day

I know this feeling won't go away

Every word I say is true

This I promise you.

Labels: 我应该就放开不再對他依賴

just for you.

i shldnt love you but i want to

i just cant turn away

i shldnt see you but i cant move

i cant look away

and I dont know how to be fine when im not

cus i dont know how to make a feeling stop

just so you know

this feeling's taking control of me

and i cant help it

i wont sit around

i cant let him win now

thought you shld know

i've tried my best to let go of you

but i don't want to

i just gotta say it all

before i go

just so you know

it's getting hard to be arnd you

there's so much i cant say

do you want me to hide the feelings

and look the other way

this emptiness is killing me

and im wondering why i've waited so long

looking back I realize

it was always there just never spoken

im waiting here

Labels: 我应该就走开就算感情还在

yesterday was drama.

lol. i reached sch late to meet clifton and gla.

ask me why pls!

its because one of my hamster got lost behind my wardrobe!

stupid little cute hamster. =x

haha. it got out in the end la.

put it back in the cage and left home.

met them in the library and they were watching harry potter and the order of the phoenix.

and i watched with them for like an hour.

i wasnt able to catch the show because..

i forgot why la. must be because of someone.

went to training. and were we like calculating who would be in the school team this yr.

although we kinda disapprove of who shld be in the team.

k. then i played a few "friendly" matches.

went to eat at bukit timah plaza and you called.

bicker here and there again. so funny.

went home with gladys. online-d and talked to jiawei till 5plus in the morning.

woke up at 1 plus in the afternoon today.

the whether outside was cooling.

i was expecting it to rain.

and it really did. as i reminiscence the past.

i noticed that a lot of things that happened, it brings with it memories.

memories cant be erased. bad or good. fun or sad.

i went back to sleep.

and im awake now. i feel the fatigue and lethargic-ness.

although you didnt complete your report, i still wanted to meet you.

but, no.

i dont know why. just stop and stare~

Labels: dearest.

i really loved yesterday a lot.

those small bickerings.

i know i was late. im sorry.

watched STRANGERS.

its really a thriller. (:

and i loved the place where we sat.

HAHA!

walked to clark quay with snapping of camera.

and off to singapore flyer.

and off home.

and i love love love kinder bueno.

especially from you.

and of course the STAR!

how could i have left that behind.

and you made my day!

seriously.

thank you.

Labels: all for you.

I SERIOUSLY NEED A HAIRCUT.

Labels: haircut

as most of you have noticed, i've been clubbing a lot recently.
and before i start off, i wanna thank the new people in my life.
ernest, jiawei, august, benjamin, jonathan and nigel, not forgetting andrew.

i told myself countless of times, things are the same.
but things have changed. A LOT.
i've came to realise a lot.
thus, the denial. and i've changed.

anyways, clubbed on sat.
which im ready to declare that clubbing on sat is a bad thing.
it seem like a fast forwarded version of what happened 2 weeks ago.
people that i've wronged are the people who i shouldn't have wronged.
the clearer picture is out.

some people ought to feel threaten now.
because when someone know too much, its a knowledge.

sometimes, i cant be bothered about you and your nonsense.
but never take me for granted.
because for what i know, i've stood beside you everytime you fall.
and you didnt really did the same for me.
i've never complain about you.
because i didnt wanna lose you.
but now, thinking of it, do u deserve me as your friend.
to think i'll think highly of myself. but look at yourself.
i dont even know where i stand now.
you ought to be ashamed.

you just need to think, who is ready to be there when you're down.
and this time round, i wont be there.
and i love it.

im late. i know.
you give black face.
you late.
i give black face.
you kao pei.
make me wait.
after an hour then inform us.
WOW.
i have such a great friend! love it!

its your priority, not mine.

anyways,
all i want is my friends to be happy.
but if you dont treasure what you have now, you'll regret it later.
i've decided to take my stand.
where's yours?

cut hair today.
movie today.
JIAWEI! (:
love it.

charlie's angle should meet up soon!
cycle to town k!
so much fun that time!
fun stuff and hot stuff really rawk big time.

HAHHAHAA, before i continue,
i was youtube-ing about tsunami a few weeks back,
and i tell you,
the first wave people go wow.
and the next wave, people running.
and the next thing,
THOUSANDS DIED.
random.

and our dear neighbour (MALAYSIA) is having some problems at home.
omg.
i lazy to blog about it la.
whatever they do, i find it stupid.
lol.

k, enough of random thoughts.
kinda tired.
i just woke up actually.

and HAPPY YOUTH DAY!
(:
and its super windy now.
and i guess, jiawei is still sleeping eh.
GOOD AFTERNOON ALR LA!
(:

&you, TMR TMR TMR TMR TMR! (:

Labels: happy youth day.

after the onslaught of clubbing and talking on the phone till late.

i woke up pretty early. which was at 2pm.

suppose to meet my godbro.

but i was rather lazy.

so i told him i'll meet him at night then.

and off i went to slp again.

then woke up.

ate and played games with my brother,

talked online.

and off to sleep again.

OMG. i sound like i have some sleeping disorder.

woke up again at 10pm.

left home to meet my godbro.

talked and talked.

and that weichin so slow.

in the end he fell asleep. -.-

send my godbro home and thats when i manage to meet weichin.

went to 7eleven. bought cup noodles.

and then slacked at one of the blocks. talk cock and sing song.

then he asked wanna go to the multi-storey carpark to slack since its super breezy.

so off we went and its so peaceful up there.

seriously, im going to slack there more often.

its so nice!

fun stuff and hot stuff.

and weichin stop wearing that super short shorts.

too hot alr. i get turned on. HAHHAA.

like you said, w h a t e v e r.

reached home at 6am.

then waited for my brother to go to school.

cooked myself breakfast and off to sleep at 8am.

and now, i just woke up feeling lethargic like fuck.

and im going to school to squash today.

and jiawei, i bet you cant wake up because you got home at 7am.

and you've not been having enough sleep eh. LOL.

i squash in NP, you squash in SP. (:

AND AND AND AND

when i sleep next time,

im so going to put my phone to silent mode.

its disturbing my sleep.

&you, you're schooling so stop being an owl k.

Labels: HOT STUFF.