i skinned my knee.

clubbed yesterday.

and i admit i was on sugar rush for a moment of time.

yesterday was hot and sexy.

and i loved it.

my virgin night to a new place was good.

it gave me a good impression of itself.

the songs good.

the light effect was fabulous!

and they played my SONGS that i really love!

looks at jiawei.

saw friends.

danced.

grooved.

hot stuff.

ernest, jiawei, jonathan, nigel, adam, messiah, and me.

FUN STUFF.

waited for chuyang.

talked to benji and chris. who are chuyang's friend.

talked to jasper, tony and justin.

funny stuff.

and tony! thanks huh!

lol.

i didnt regret clubbing today.

and i saw daniel with a MINI COOPER!

omg. omg. omg. omg.

JIAWEI! how.

went home with chuyang. (:

cabbed. and it was a good talk.

on phone with jiawei till 6 plus in the morning.

which he still thought i was waiting for my first bus/train.

so funny.

whatever it is jiawei, thanks for talking to me.

and yes, infatuation kinda kills huh.

SEE YOU GUYS SOON AGAIN K! (:

not st.james i hope.

Labels: GIVE IT 2 ME.

goodness. i squashed again.

and i tennis-ed. haha. all the way at Singapore Island Country Club.

me, lulu, jarrod and jiawei.

met up with lulu opp. KAP.

took cab there after that.

after the whole thing,

took cab down to jarrod's place.

which i really find super peaceful and gorgeous.

went to eat.

jarrod left for a concert.

me jiawei and lulu went to town.

slacked.

and off for home.

online-ed.

cooked.

and i seriously hate super sick jokes.

and i tend to just not bother about you no more.

hayden, you may just fuck off i think. for now.

and i'm thinking of signing bond with the air force.

shld i? shld i?

i'm in a lost.

i really hope tmr's seminar be a knowledgeable one.

it better be productive i tell you.

Labels: tired.

mummy cooked super nice food recently.
and im so going to blog about it.

yesterday mummy cooked crab.
and today is the best.
SAMBAL PRAWNS!
looks at LOUIS! (:

haha.

&you, please rest more and eat your meals k.

Labels: FOOD.

its all about you.

Labels: just for you.

SQUASH IS FUN! (:

i just woke up and my body is aching.
my butt really hurts!

this what happens when you dont do warm up.
mummy bought kinder bueno for me.
and stared at her blankly.

this is what happen when i remember something else.
and i didnt know i cant post chinese character on blogger.com
damn sian.

home sweet home.

p/s: im getting jealous of louis lye yong seng because he is in tioman for very long!

Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That when the lights are off
something's killing me
I know it seems like people care
Cause they're always around me
But when the day is done and everybody runs
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it's empty everywhere
It's hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I've got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there

And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you've been on
That you're coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anybody see
That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me
Who will be the one to save me from myself
Who will be the one who's there
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
Who's gonna catch me when I fall
And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who's gonna catch me when I fall

Labels: catch me when i fall.

today is sunday.
and time check, its 2.40pm
and i just woke up.

yesterday was fucked up to me.
i so shouldnt have clubbed.
and the whole fucking day was like in a rush.
yesterday i woke up at 1pm.
and i was suppose to meet up for a lunch date with my poly friends.
time to meet up was 1.30pm.
venue was holland v.

rushed and got there by 2.30pm
and decided to settled for settlers.
played board games and had the time of laughters while eating.
left and went to my friend's birthday party.

and time wasnt by my side.
went to club and then met jiawei, ernest, adam and finally, jarrod.
slacked at ICON. (its a condo, dumb dumb. go find google it.)
talked and jarrod's and jiawei's mums are hilarious.
sat on jarrod's car. went maxwell.
ernest and adam went to club first.
and off for me and jiawei to go. while jarrod went home.

and clubbing was bad.
really bad.
saw things im not suppose to see.
some of my friends got real drunk.
the music sucked.
it was too packed.
and i had to pay cover charge for that night!

enough of that.
will be squashing at sentosa tmr.
jiawei, lets just forget everything.
and just hit the ball like its our enemy k.
both of us need a time off.
like seriously. (:
lets laugh more and forget the world.
they dont deserve us.
=x

and im fucking moody now.

Labels: FUCKED UP.

in the end,
i met up with weichin yesterday.
called jing yuan and moses.
they came down too.
we chilled at starbucks and there, we were talking.
jeremy aint coming because he claims that he had to send his friend off.

those good old times were memories.
these are the people who are with me for years.
its been 7 years.
these are the people i laugh with.
these are the people who went the same shit as me in sec sch.
these are the people i know in sec 1 when i felt lost.
these are the people who build teamwork during the sec1 camp.
as memorable as it may seem, we do have our downs.

moses left to meet a friend.
and jing yuan left halfway.

me and weichin went to bukit panjang part and chilled at the playground.
we talked for hours.
catched up on whatever we missed on each other's life.
nothing seem to change so much.

the moon was bright.
it was shining with the round glow.
the stars shined like tmr wont be coming.

i remember those were the days with some special people in my life.
everytime i look up, i will be thinking whether you'll look up to.
thinking of what im thinking.

but hey!
it was super memorable and im happy that i did my best.

it will never be a relationship if there isnt gonna be,
trust and honesty.

i cook.
i wash.
i do laundry.
i make you smile.
i make you laugh.
but im aint rich.
i wont be able to please you with gifts.
i wont be able to bring you out to eat.
i cant treat you everytime i ask you out.
im just a typical average type of guy.

i cant be compared to models nor a rich guy.
but i'll go as far as i can for someone i like or love.
everybody would right?

but if i ever get compared and everything,
i dont see a point. because i'll just lose out.
im not as good-looking nor rich.
=x

anyways, wei chin walked me home.
thanks alot.
and yes i owe you a favour.

and my dear dear didi,
DANIEL! NEXT TIME ANSWER YOUR PHONE K!
we could have meet up yesterday! roar.
i know you miss me! dont need to lie. (:
haha.

well, meeting half of my clique today.
and tmr would be different. i suppose.
and i have craving for thaiExpress now.
IM LOOKING AT JIAWEI! (:

ha.
&you, you're something.

Labels: MOON AND STARS.

its so cold now.
the wind is blowing into my room.
i stay 3rd floor only lei.

haha.
the moon is round as it can be.
the full moon is out.

it rained in the afternoon.
which i was still sleeping.
yes, i was home the whole day again.
i would really enjoy the fact that its so comfortable to be home.
eat no need to pay.
no need spend money.
and i dont need to iron my clothes nor wash them.
YES, I IRON AND I DO LAUNDRY.
AND NO, IM NOT NAKED AT HOME.
JUST STRICTLY BOXERS.
so dont be shocked if you see me half naked on webcam eh!
-cheeky eh. *waves into webcam!

i've been watching anime online.
i've been doing some reading.

i suddenly feel like slacking in the library.
anyone wanna accompany me?

ron is gonna finish his exams on the 30th June.
that means i'll be able to meet up with him.
he wanna squash with me which i doubt will happen.
i so wanna go sentosa.
its like a craving.
my hands have been twitching to play SQUASH!
jiawei jiawei jiawei. TIME FOR SQUASH SOON TOO.

apart of all this,
the sky looks clear out of my window.
i can see the stars shining.
dreamland express again soon.

im someone different.
my flaws are different.
everyone is unique in their own way.

what matters is that,
in my eyes, you're perfect.
nothing else matter.
(:

Labels: Random Rants.

full moon tmr.

and the sky is filled with stars.

dreamland express.

Labels: just for you.

been so long.
since i actually stayed home.
2days in a row. i was home.
in my room. doing my own stuff.

most of the time reading.
or else, i'll be DOTA-ing with my brother or louis.

it feels so good, come to think of it.
me and my brother were nvr in good terms last time.
one thing was because i look down on him.
hated him to the core because he was a typical malay type.
but he has changed to a better person.
which is smth that i really appreciate.

and dont be shocked,
we both cook ok! (:

today, was suppose to meet up with weichin for starbucks.
changed to tmr afternoon.

retards outing this friday i suppose.
looks at gladys, clifton and jasmine.
lulu is going tioman which i definately be jealous about.

i've been all crazy about you that i didnt have a chance to look back.
i'll slowly try my best.
rushing aint a good idea.

but then again,
I JUST LOVE MY ROOM!
haha.

and ron, if you are ever reading this,
when is the stayover gonna happen huh!
we should be like chatting at your house now,
on YOUR bed.

and now, i thought of the sales i did at the IT show,
IT WAS SUPER TERRIBLE.
4 days = $500 only. or maybe less.
JIAWEI!! HOW TO SURVIVE.

oh oh oh.
jiawei asked me a very interesting question over the phone today.
"If you driving then u hit a dog how huh?"
it actually got me thinking lei. hahhaa.
malays cant touch dog rmb! so i think i will just stop another person
to help me lo.
and i'll be like,
"wo shi ma lai ren, bu ke yi tong "dog" " hahaha.
i dont know whats dog in chinese la.

and the sky was super clear today.
jiawei was like repeating it over the phone.
which suddenly reminded me after i went over your place,
i looked up and the stars were shining onto me while i
was thinking how crazy i was.

some people dont know that i am a full time owl.
which why wei chin called me at 3am la!
haha.

secondary school days.
polytechnic days.
are all over for me.

next would be my NS life.
16th September 2008.

for once, i know reality slapped my face.
wo shi huan ni.

Labels: sex was in the cravings.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Labels: myself.

Labels: overdue photos.

after the onslaught from sleeping for near to 12hours.
i felt so lethargic and hungry.

i look at my hp which i was hoping that you msg me before
you went to slp.
and you did. i felt so happy with a sigh included.

i so need to feel better.
thanks to jiawei alot yesterday.
thank you, buddy. thanks.

Labels: MESSED UP.

anyways, today was my last day at work.
clubbed on friday with gang.

in the end, they really played "when i grow up."

i thought i would be able to see you.
i was really happy to hear your voice.

but..
i then, i thought..

i really dont know why i've fallen for you.
and its real deep.
but whats the reason.
its not infatuation. nor was it lust.
i have feelings. do you?

i feel messed up. please talk to me.

Labels: MESSED UP.

im just tired to be compared to people i dont wished to be compared to.
and i somehow feel that this is so redundant.
i can never be that person.
im different. im different. im different.
stop letting me hang.

i tried to be understanding.
i showed my concern.

R-E-D-U-N-D-A-N-T.

lets just treat it as a one night stand.
i think i would be happier that way.

Labels: so redundant.

i told myself its a brand new day.
i told myself not to be so bothered about you.

im randomly ranting to myself that everything is
going to be ok.

i finally able to meet up with some of my youth
expedition project friends. (YEP)
we had buffet at PARISS. lol.
and the food there is good.

and i met addy and ernest. been a long time!
(:

and which later after the buffet,
suppose to go club.
but changed to slacking.

meet up with jonathan, ernest and jiawei.
slacked at cine.
which later we decided to watch movie then
changed to eating at swensens.

where we slacked.
and slacked.
and talked.
and talked.

until adam came and we left swensen.
which was super funny.
drunken people are super funny.
we walked to somewhere near somerset where we
slacked and talked.

took the last night rider.
and some random guy fell asleep on me.
and my hp batt went flat.
-akward.

and now i just cant be bothered about you.
because it wasnt serious after all.
and all i could do was look.

and jiawei is so going to blog about me!
*stares.

JIAWEI! FOCUS! hahahhaa.

Labels: SMILES.

and once agian,
im back from clubbing.

and this time round,
i can tell you, it rocked the house down.
i tell you, i had that sugar rush.

benjamin, jiawei, andrew, ernest, alex, jonathan and this very cute girl.

the gucci private sale was such a sad stuff.
all the things i wanted to get was made of wild-boar skin.

and i really in a mess now.
and jiawei knows that.

im so confused on what im suppose to do.
and i've been blurred by reality.

i just need to let it go.
and why is it so difficult.

Labels: MESSED UP.

the big day arrived.
i've graduated.

will upload the photos next time.
thanks to all.

especially to jiawei and melissa.
(:

p/s: my mum cried when she saw the graduation video.

went to club with joanna,louis,jiawei,melissa and jianxiong.
damn fun.
just like when i club when i got my last exam results.

working for this coming IT Roadshow at EXPO.
12th June to 15th June

and im going malaysia tmr.

and to you: thanks for everything.

Labels: sexay.