i skinned my knee.

this is a random entry.
too much things have passed.
~~shit~~ things happen.
now i understand when they say that this is life.
always expecting the unexpected.
it ~~doesnt~~ does hurt. deep inside.
i was reflecting about life.
i sat there, in my room.
infront of my dear lappy.
was i ~~sad~~ happy?
while i listened to the songs, it brought me along.
to my past where the fun and laughter was.
my dear readers, this is going to be along entry.
if you are ~~lazy~~ not keen to read, just tag.
hmm. wasnt in the mood to write actually.
write it after given a few silent moment with myself.
friends come and go.
didnt expect you to do so.
it feel wierd.
something in me ache. why?
i also dont know why.
i was agitated.
whats done is done.
i bid you all the best.
sometimes i do ask myself.
i just dont get it.
nvm that. let it be bygones.
i just wanna say sorrie to you kaes.
in class, i wanna thank god that i have great classmates.
xiaopei and andrew.
we even joked about making the,
www.feefeeandandrew.blogspot.com
and andrew joked about he must come first
cause his name starts with A-N. -.-
www.andrewandfeefee.blogspot.com ( whats the diff.?)
then i argued my name starts with A-F.
www.afizzulandandrew.blogspot.com (-.-)"
woohoo. lol. thats how boring class can be.
they making me laugh every single day.
daven and shufen, they have been a great friends.
soon it will be our 1 year anniversary of friendship.
haha. time do pass when we had our fun.
i was watching "i not stupid too" again.
and my tears flowed. i just dont know why.
too much ~~sin~~ memories la.
hmmm.
i miss those old times la.
i wanna go back to secondary one.
and start all over again.
i miss belinda.
i miss amanda.
i miss vivien.
i miss syazwani.
i miss raihanah.
i miss my duties.
i miss my ccas.
i miss everyone on my sch.
i miss especially my juniors.
i miss my didi, daniel.
in simpler words, i miss my secondary sch days.
sch have been fun so far.
squash training, erm.
outward bounders training, erm.
lol. i dont wish to explain.
well. i got the translation of the theme song of
I NOT STUPID TOO.

Yi Sheng Jue Wang
we're outlaws. we're street gangs.
we're the insolent ones,nothing pleases us.
hold a tight rein on us, and it will brew trouble.
we're hopeless, so what?
we dont give a damn if you look down on us.
we're nothing, we care for nothing.
why this wall of silence between us?
there is a wall between us.
teacher gave up on us.
parents think we're insensible.
society's expectations exceeds our imagination.
smart kids must be good, they say.
looking down on us doesnt mean you're better.
who cares why we lose direction?
nobody gives a thought to how an apple rots?
we tried to win the consensus.
how much hope have you given us?
tears are dried, the future's bleak.
we are lost souls.
what should we do?
punishment is your method to make us grow.
it destroys all our hopes and ambitions.
standing at a crossroad, bellowing in the wind.
dont kill our hopes.

it made me think when i was in secondary one
where i looked down on Normal (A) and
Normal (T).
how self-centered was i?
i actually thought that they were not fit to be my friends.
come to think of it now, one of my closest friend,
is from normal (T).
its not how we look at them.
its how we think of them.
i've learnt that.
i find them more trustworthy.
i do wanna thank them for being there when i need it.

i wanna personally thank one of my godbro, Ryan.
he is an american homeschooler.
been a great didi. thanks alot.

there is too much mixed feelings in me now.
im starting to drown in them.
i think, songs can help me describe.

are you aware of what you make me feel?
right now i feel invisible to you, like i'm not real.
didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
why'd you turn away?
here's what i have to say,
i was left to cry there,
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare
that's when i decided.
why should i care?
cause you weren't there when i was scared.
i was so alone.
you need to listen i'm starting to trip,
i'm losing my grip and i'm in this thing alone.
am i just some friend you place beside you to take somebody's place?
when you turn around, can you recognize my face?
you used to tell me,you used to confide in me.
but that wasn't the case,
everything wasn't ok.
i was left to cry there.
waiting outside there grinning with a lost stare.

everything’s so blurry
and everyone's so fake
everybody’s empty
and everything is so messed up
preoccupied without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble and I crawl
& you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I’ll protect you
from all of the obscene
I wonder what your doing
imagine where you are
there's oceans in between us
but that’s not very far
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
this pain you gave to me
everyone is changing
there’s no one left that’s real
make up your own ending
and let me know just how you feel
cause I am lost without you
I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
you could be my someone
you can be my scene
you know that I will save you
from all of the unclean
I wonder what your doing
I wonder where you are
there’s oceans in between us
but that’s not very far
can you take it all away
can you take it all away
well you shoved it in my face
the pain you gave to me
Nobody told me what you thought
nobody told me what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
nobody showed you where to hide
nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn
showed you when to run away
Can you take it all away
can you take it all away
can you take away the pain
the pain you gave to me
this pain you gave to me

sigh.
well. i wanna say i miss xiiaonoel. lol.
thanks for tagging. ((:

its late.
i got meeting tmr.
hmm. off to bed now.
will update more later.
all the best to everyone.