this year has been a memorable one.

new friends found.

and this is the year i enlist.

two more years to go. =/

HAHAHA.

clubbed alot this year.

i've been fitter.

i've been sexier.

i've been hotter.

i've been hornier. ( k. you SO didnt need to know that )

basically, i had a great yr.

UPS and DOWNS.

THICK and THIN.

UP and DOWN.

LEFT and RIGHT.

NORTH and SOUTH.

EAST and WEST.

HOT and SEXY.

NAUGHTY and KINKY.

SEX and FUCK.

k enough. enough.

you shld get the mental idea la.

=]

and i wish all my readers,

a happy new year.

p/s: i'll update again like in 7 hours. haha.

and i can feel the pain through me alr.

NO NEED TO ASK ME TO CLUB.

because i wont go.

wonder why? just ask me.

contented? yes.

annoyed? yes.

stressed-up? yes.

i have alot of mixed feelings in camp.

so many things to think of!

SOC, IPPT, TESTS, FIELD CAMP, LIVE FIRING.

when im out.

i only think of one thing.

and always looking forward to it.

i so need to believe i can do this.

a leader leads by example.

really alot of thanks to those who talks to me when

im in camp and everything. really appreciate it.

went over to hazel park condo to meet gladys.

talked and had family lunch.

shopped and cabbed home.

the sian feeling filled in.

the thought of booking in.

fucked-up.

and the thought of tmr's IPPT was worst.

a hug would have been great now.

xoxo.

and SISPEC has eaten an inch of my life.

and thus, before i continue,

im utterly stressed over the fact that im actually unfit for SISPEC.

and im posted there. because the fact that i passed my IPPT due to pull-ups

which are not standard.

my SOC is another fucking problem. GOD.

how to be leader?

im fucking stressed and depressed.

at night cant really sleep. feel like crying.

I SO FEEL LIKE SHOUTING.

lessons and lectures have been fun so far.

and i really have to agree that Strength Training was fun too.

laugh and do physical training.

so much fun than getting punished la.

someone would ask how i spend my christmas?

i played this card game called citadels at jorge's hse which was damn fun. and tiring.

a game would last us up to an hour and a half.

yeah! that bad.

i knocked out after the second game which was like 6am on christmas morning.

slept over till 5plus in the afternoon.

went out today to meet grandma and cousin.

went to eat.

and shopped.

bought my undergarments! =] ( yeah! happy boy! )

bought two polo tees.

and im so tempted to get ben sherman's polo tee too.

shopped at carrefour too.

met jorge and jonathan.

ate supper.

and now im home blogging.

and im rather bored.

and im not looking forward to book in either.

my army life is in a mess, seriously.

nothing else matter no more.

can i have the last dance with you? please.

some of people may not have known that,

i've been posted to SISPEC.

and yes, im in CHARLIE.

im damn stressed up and of course scared.

cant sleep well at night and everything.

suddenly, i found myself not mentally prepared to be where i am.

just because of this, im having a hard time.

and im no longer a PTE (Private) AFIZZUL.

i've jumped to SCT ( Specialist Cadet Trainee ).

god. i hope things get easier for me.

i pray that i get through my SOC too.

i dont really fear my IPPT anymore.

im kinda numb.

my heart beats so fast.

i can have fever.

thanks to those who gave me support so far.

wishing all merry christmas and a happy holiday!

why am i tempted too?

and i really want it.

for fun and nothing serious.

im starting to be a bastard.

my new year resolution should really be,

=]

movie was initiated.

and so if i watched twilight, it would be with him and his cousin.

and i know i gonna feel wierd so, we caught,

THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL.

god. the show damn funny. but the ending sadly sucked.

off to paragon where he bought his new shoes.

tho' seriously the other color was damn nice.

size 11 is like a limited edition size.

walked to PS while listening to his mp3.

and god! his songs rocks.

you know what i want, so give it to me, XOXO pls!

headed home.

and im feeling pretty hungry.

and jorge is chasing me to go eat.

which im going to do now.

XOXO, toodles.

=]

hanged out with benji and dezhang yesterday at spinelli.

and seriously, the chocolate drink there was nice.

thanks to benji for the recommendation.

i feel so broke for now.

god.

i spent so much just over the few days.

and i got cravings for waffles again.

haha. peanut plus kaya rocks the world.

tho' i know im gonna get like diabetes for eating that too often.

knn! i bet you ppl are cursing me now.

this 2 weeks temporary civilian life has been hectic and

sometimes boring.

come to date, i've only watched bolt, which i find,

boring, tho' the character were damn cute. funny.

and for once i feel like im myself.

=]

come and get me.

especially you.

been crazy few days before.

chalet/shopping/catching up/clubbing.

the best part is the time is catching up with me fast.

im tired before 1am.

i feel lethargic.

and my posting witll be up soon.

so crazy.

my next phase of NS life is gonna start soon.

DAMN BORING CAN!

ohh, money is flowing out of my wallet like water fall.

damn sian. and really the stupid NS pay can nvr be enough.

im protecting this country with this amount?

god. i rather be a cleaner at the hawker centre.

i can earn more lor!

so many things still on my to-buy list.

die la.

and now, im alr feeling lethargic.

wtf.

its a sunday!

and its like so cold and drizzling.

im in my room. infront of the lappy.

and listening to hui you na me yi tian by lin jun jie.

suddenly so emo right?

funny me.

god. i so need to find something to do.

like fuck someone right? =]

surprisingly, it was over before i knew it.

blisters and abrasions are the after effect.

i never felt so happy! =]

thanks to all the well wishes.

im not longer a recruit!

IM A PRIVATE NOW!

no more REC AFIZZUL!

its PTE AFIZZUL now! =]

had dinner with family at changi village.

taxi-ed home and my legs are killing me.

he's one of the guys from other section that im kinda close to.

he's none other than YUAN ZHI.

or many others also known him as the veggie boy.

yes, yes, he's vegetarian. cute right! lol.

he's from section one.

one of the first few I/C.

thinks he's better than me.

though most of the time, not la. =] *winks.

oh! he has a very bad temper.

but i dont care actually.

because the actually fact, he wont get angry with me.

because im the best remember?

oh! he's the also the main motivation for me to pass my fucking IPPT.

and he always make me jealous with his pull ups.

always like to bully me.

but then again, he run like a snail.

thinking he can overtake me. =p

try harder next time k.

he's the first platoon mate i went out with to shop with.

and he's bitchy too.

and he's from band.

and play some very weird instrument. (actually i forgot the name)

fine! he's just good to me la. =]

dont fall out on the 24km graduation route march.

i want to see you at the end point.

graduate with me.

=]

and of course, all the best.

felt so fast.

the entire week was Graduation Parade Rehearsal.

and honestly, standing under the hot sun is damn irritating.

im seriously not prepared for my 24km graduation route march.

i so dont wanna fall out and be a sore loser.

that feeling is fucked up.

and being the last row and being the first row(after turning for march pass)

is damn honorable can!

enough of that.

damn shagged.

=]

but before i go off,

this is my peer appraisal for my bunk mates that i promised.

my personal view and its from the starting of BMT till the POP. =]

Number is according to bed number.

Ulysses Company Platoon 4, Section 2.

1. Zhi Wei.

this bloody person is my platoon best. the first time, he wasnt that talkative. and he was pretty much reserved. AND he kept saying his dick was small. HAHA. k, not funny. from being a fucking zero fighter to a SILVER in IPPT and a fucker when it comes to running because he won me in 2.4km! cb! nabei! he improved tremendously in physical aspect and became much more outspoken. Platoon I/C during field-camp and obviously the "shag cannot think attitude" didnt kick in which was a real good thing. I expect him to be in OCS. it does seem that my bitchyness influenced him too. so he's kinda bitchy sometimes. ya la, thanks to me la. he has the leadership qualities for sure. and yea, he's a lame person too. damn funny at times too. and yes, he bathes when he has the time for sure. he's in the ARM SQUAD ( ppl who are incharge of the rifles ) / Drill Squad (Games Day). Section 2's 2IC( 2nd In-charge)

2. Cedric Tay.

this is my best friend forever. this whore is the first guy i talked to. and yes, he popped the question. not the proposal la. but to be his toilet buddy which until now, we nvr went to the toilet tgt at night. HAHA. funny on how he asked. this person was quiet and everything but things changed when we got to know each other better. he's a pest sometimes but i let him live on me. because he's fun to be with and has the OCS printed on him. he loves to bitch and of course he's the vice president. funny funny him. oh! he is the Key I/C for my platoon and Section I/C. and he's done his responsibilities as Platoon I/C too.

3. Afizzul.

THE BEST LA. BARRACK DAMAGE I/C, 2IC KEY IC, PLATOON I/C. BAISED VIEW LA.

4. Alvin Tan.

My buddy. Blur Cock during the first few weeks. BUT in the end he's the baby and the joker in my bunk. he smiles alot and need to be reminded on what to bring. hardcore wrestler and football watcher. and he's very helpful. he's dad is a freaking commando. and he gets bullied sometimes la. he's the real happy go lucky boy. and having him as my buddy during field camp was fun and yet endurance for my temper tolerance. hahaha.

6. Charlie Chia.

FUNNY. Platoon I/C during field camp also. Bully me a lot. and always counter me with his stupidity. NABEI. he's great to be around with. makes everyone around him cheery. he's quite reserved during the first few weeks too. helpful and has initiative for sure. he's the ARM SQUAD too. and he has the OCS printed on his ASS. =]

AND YES, he LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT and from a zero fighter to a SILVER IPPT. =] congrats to you.

7. DeZhang.

MR DIVA. =] hygiene freak yet so messy. forgetful person who tries hard to rmb. good effort la. lol. wants to get to OCS. he's the ARM SQUAD I/C. he adapts to stress quite well and i was pretty impressed. though he got scolded by me a couple of times for being so forgetful and poor time management. and yes, he's the guy who got chicken pox. and we missed him for 2 weeks and hope he got better. all were smiles when he reported back to the bunk. he's a real funny person in my bunk and you wouldnt have guessed he was 22years old. HAHA. he's previously from dragonboat and he's the only one in my bunk who can do over 15 pull ups but cant jump at all. time to go plastic surgery to install springs on your leg la. OH! train up on your running pls! dont be over confident to overtake me next time! lol.

8. Deepan.

The indian guy in my bunk. the funny asshole. loves to fuck and he's be assigned by my platoon to be the sergeant major. hahha. he brings the real J in jokes. oh, since the first day, he talks on the phone ALOT.

like everytime you see him during Admin time after RO, he's on the phone and yes, he smokes. he's the only one who smokes in my bunk.

9. Benjamin Kenji Tanaka.

the guy who has a fusion in his heritage and blood. he's a real person you can count on everytime. i thought he was malay when he first stepped into the bunk. GOD. he's fucking japanese alright! hahaa. he's the toilet cleaner for my platoon. and he gets bullied by my bunk often too. especially the irritating cedric. he's from NP! and yea i know, NP produces QUALITY Students. hahhaa. *roll eyes @ Ced.

11. Zhi Yuan.

MR. ATT. B. lol. he's from NP and he's quite helpful. congratulations on your pass for IPPT. oh, he provides music and speakers for my IPOD. thanks buddy! and yes, the radio too. and please stop eating cup noodles. lol.

k. done.

if i skip any numbers means the bed OOT, and posted out alr.

toodles.

(btw, only got 13 bed in my bunk but 12 ppl was enlisted to my bunk, last bed was rocky's)