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Free personality analysis of .afizzul.
Generated on Sat Aug 25 09:09:45 2007.

.afizzul's Existing Situation
Unable to exert the efforts to achieve his objectives. Feels neglected, desiring greater security, warm affection, and fewer problems.

.afizzul's Stress Sources
Suppresses his innate enthusiasm and imaginative nature, for fear that he might be carried away by it only to find himself pursuing some will-o'-the-wisp. Feels he has been misled and abused and has withdrawn to hold himself cautiously aloof from others. Keeps a careful and critical watch to see whether motives towards him are sincere--a watchfulness which easily develops into suspicion and distrust.

.afizzul's Restrained Characteristics
Feels cut off and unhappy because of the difficulty in achieving the essential degree of cooperation and harmony which he desires.
The situation is preventing him from establishing himself, but he feels he must make the best of things as they are.

.afizzul's Desired Objective
Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to allow anything to influence his point of view.

.afizzul's Actual Problem
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt. His refusal to admit this leads to his adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.

.afizzul's Actual Problem #2
His natural ability to examine everything with critical discrimination has been distorted into an attitude of harsh disapproval, which opposes and denigrates without regard to the real facts.

took the quiz today. nth better to do. its kinda true. joanna wouldnt disagree. LOL.

take the quiz at http://www.colorquiz.com/ --> quite accurate. got it from alfie's blog.

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i've been staring into space lately.
i've even open my window when it rained.
i looked out the window,
and i thought,
were we meant to be?

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can we change the fact that's its over.
im i too selfish at that moment of time?

bahh.
it ended too early.

i've just cut my hair.
its so short thats its fugly.
mummy says i look like a small boy.
how ironic.
mummy just meant that its U-G-L-Y.

ok.
i've not clubbed.
and i've not cycled.

sch starts on MONDAY.

so i'll be free from 5pm onwards everyday.
free on sats and suns.
unless its family outing of course.

how i wish you were beside me.
but those were just dreams in reality.

anyways,
happy birthday jerome didi.
grow up already.
anything, know where to find me.

memories ;

since you've been gone.

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well well well.
time for an update since i've have nth better to do at home.

exams's over.
and come to think of it,
i've screwed up both of them.

so much for mugging very hard.
die.
this semester no A.
i feel like crying.

went out to town after the last paper.
slacked and talked about our secondary school stories.
i miss those days.

how childish i was and everything.
now, im still as childish. HAHAHA.

was talking to U-Jin on msn.
he already pass his driving la!
okok.
im so JEALOUS.
daven!!! faster pass!
then can go supper and go have night activities!
HAHAHA.
*stress.

soon, VPP will start.
brain cells will be used up to do projects.
everyday 8am to 5pm.
DIE DIE DIE.

but life is too short.

you can nvr know when is the last time u can see the sun rise again.
i imagine a scenario.
the day before,
we were hanging out in town,
laughing our ass off and enjoying each other company.
your friend tells you that he/she cant wait
for tmr where he/she will recieve your next dosage of laughters.

and the next day came,
you were waiting for he/she to call you,
and there wasnt any sms nor calls.
you dialled her/his number and someone else picked up the phone.
that someone tells you, "she's gone".

your mind went blank.
and that someone close to you just "gone".

friendship builds up.
but ppl may not just appreciate it until its gone.
treasure your friends.
because you'll nvr know what will happen next.

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meet up with louis for supper yesterday.
and we had a great laugh at macdonalds.
suppose to sleep at his hse after that.
but it rained and my room window was wide open.

so no choice, must go home.
cant expect me to call my home right?
its 3am!
LOL.

i really cant slp after that.
just dont know why.
been having difficulty to slp.

i just tell myself,
go with the flow.

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alvin!! i want to go cycle with you!

daven, joanna, melissa : when are we going to hike bukit timah huh!

louis : bowling pls! and of course hang out with retards.

retards co. : hang out and we need a squashing good time.

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when you're gone ;

Labels: rants.

i didnt know alot of unexpected ppl read my blog.
my blog is full of dust by now.
and im here to clear them up.
(:

im taking a rest from studying now.
monday is my first paper.
wow. im feeling rather sick.
now im feeling, "SCREWED".

went shopping with daven and melissa.
retail therapy. (:

went cycling with alvin and daven.
this time round at bukit timah.
and we ended up in mandai.
clocked in at 22km i think.
*claps!
daven was hardcore.
LOL.
dont wish to elaborate.
we had fun laughing.
(:
and after the whole adventure,
we slacked at one of the canals and found snake eggs in the pipe lines.
then we had "tau huay" break.
and after the whole thing,
went home and showered.
and went out to meet my pals from my IS in year 1.
(:
raymond is getting hotter. HAHA.

national day,
went to botanic garden with gladys and jasmine
after landing at island cremery.
(:
i found my group photo on the wall already. (:
kk. we cam-whored at botanic gardens!
(:
they make me laugh.
and there we alot of classic photos and of course, the UN-GLAM ones too.
then off to meet my vanessa.
asked my dad whether i can watch fireworks from marina mandarin hotel.
since my dad says its possible, decided to bring vanessa there.
daddy brought me in. (:
ok. he was shocked to see me bringing me a girl with me.
and just the both of us.
because he doesnt get to see which girl im out with unless its mummy.
after the whole thing,
we slack at breko's where i send her to the mrt station after that.

and after that, i've been mugging.
studying. and online.
been studying in school lately.
with kenny.
with my clique.
with terrence.

talked to joel on one of the days.
so happy to actually talked to him.
been busy.
WE MUST CATCH UP SOON!
then i can bully you after that.
(:
bowling, sakae sushi, pool and many more!!
roar!
HAHHA.
dont run. i wont bite. *promise!

went to watch 881.
(:
very nice and funny.
was laughing my ass off.
the soundtrack were good.
plus, the songs they sing,
there's a meaning to it.

i would have sacrificed.
just to be with you.

(:
only yesterday,
we went out.
watch fireworks.
then ate at burger king.
then off for home.
where after that, i talked to raymond.
till 3am.
alot of things to catch up.
thursday meeting him. (:
HAHA.

k. back to my notes!
(:

and i want to club.
i want to cycle.
i want to squash.
and i need my daily dosage of laughters.

when you're gone.
i always needed time on my own.
i never thought i'd,
need you there when i cried.
and the days feel like years when im alone ;
and the bed where you lie,
is made up on your side.

when you walk away,
i count the steps that you take.
do you see how much I need you right now?

when you're gone,
the pieces of my heart are missing you.
when you're gone,
the face i came to know is missing too.
when you're gone,
the words i need to hear to always get me through the day ;
and make it okay,
i miss you.

i've never felt this way before.
everything that i do,
reminds me of you.
and the clothes you left,
they lie on the floor ;
and they smell just like you ;
i love the things that you do.

we were made for each other, out here forever ;
i know we were.
and all I ever wanted was for you to know,
everything I do I give my heart and soul.
i can hardly breathe; i need to feel you here with me.

i miss you; "insignifant fool."

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after having less than 10hours of sleep,
after the aftermatch of having the panel review on friday,
i went home.

clearing my thoughts for that day.
i cleared the CCA points.

i got so many things to do.
sometimes i wonder,
did i take up so much?

and here i am, still laughing.

went home, showered, and slept.
woke up.
msn-ed, sms-ed, went to slp again.

the whole friday gone.

woke up at 5.45am the next day,
alvinvin msg me.
time to meet up.
lol. this is the first time out of my poly life to wake up this early.
i'll be doing CIP at SpringField Sec.
alvin drove today so i was rather happy.
picked daven,melvin and linhan on the way.
and all of us were wearing the YEP shirt. (:
so happy.
we were like a small family in the car, laughing and having fun tgt.
(:

reached and slacked.
did the balloons.
helped the "extreme makeover"
laughed.
haha. after the whole thing,
we went to eat pizza. (:

then alvin drove us back.

me and vinvin then decided to cycle later after our naps.
meet up with him and cycled to meet wei-qiang.
got back my ez-link card which he borrowed today and forgot
passing it back to me.
talked for awhile.
and me and alvinvin continue to cycle.
reached home ard 11pm.

saturday ended.

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and as for my dear sunday,
its like a sleeping day.
and i felt rather sick.
haha.
the best part is that i met up with Zheng Jiang.
haha. still the same buddy. (:
long time since i last saw him.
went to Vivien's hse to watch soccer.
send him home and here i am blogging. (:

we must hang out soon.
and of course chiong for our driving liciense.

and guess what,
Vivien, Lynnette and Timothy got their liciense already.
*envys!

TIMOTHY GOT CAR!
*jealous!

roar! i want too. :(
-in my dreams.

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seem like i never update much lately.
i've been very busy with school.
i bet some of you are thinking what happen to squash right?
well, im taking a time off after the competition.

now, im very busy with my school society and of course my course option.
rahhh! alot of things mann.
but, this is one way i can make myself busy and not think of other stuff.

been through so much.
i've decided to let nature move its own way.
i've told you how much you meant to me.

i laughed at myself.
how silly i was.

i open up so many doors at one go.
and decided to take one of the "many" closing my eyes.

my advisor told me before,
if you have no goals,
why worry which road you'll take?
i look in the mirror.
thats the person who doesnt know what he wants.

but, im leading a simple life now,
with lusts and jealousy.
rahh. how ironic.

but i can tell you this,
memories stays and you hold a special place in my heart.

project has taken a big toll on me.
i must club soon.
i NEED it. haha.

i've not DOTA for so long.
i NEED it too.
i miss it when the computer says,
FIRST BLOOD!!
i want to DOTA with jasmine and co.
and start killing ppl. (:
i know we are noobs.
but we can kill! correct,jas? (:

i look at myself.
i've changed.

i laugh for no reasons.
i looked at kranji, my mind wanders.
i eat alot. IM NOT PREGNANT.

maybe,
im lovestoned.
maybe. maybe. maybe.

i miss squashing like ALOT.
:(

and of course,
i love my family to bits and pieces.

ok. i admit, that was RANDOM.

i want to go out with you soon.

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look me in the eye,
and tell me i meant nothing to you.

IM A HARDCORE SQUASHER.
-dont mess with me pls.
loves!
.afizzul

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